There are others who have it far worse than I do. I am blessed with four relatively healthy children and a husband who loves us. But we are drowning in so much debt that I am not sure how much longer we will be able to keep our house. I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. I am responsible for these children, yet I feel like a failure. They should have good things to eat, decent clothes to wear, and at least the hope of an education. I can no longer afford any of these. I am having thoughts of suicide now, because I feel like the children would be better off that way. At least my policy would pay off our debts and they would have a home and a shot at a better life. I know that most policies don't pay for suicide, but I have had mine for over 10 years, so I think it would. Or maybe if I just ran my car into a tree, they wouldn't know. I don't know. I can't sleep. I am crying all the time. All I can do is work, work, and continue to live on the edge of disaster. There really is no hope anymore. Thanks for listening.
